Okay, okay, he's not really that sensitive. I can understand why he would be upset. I was such a jerk to him and I don't know why, I was just joking but I guess I touched on something that was a little more than a joke to him. The last thing he said to me that night was "I'm sorry I'll be around tomorrow to make your life miserable." that put a somewhat sinking feeling in my stomach. 'You don't make my life miserable!' I wanted to yell so loudly, 'You make it anything but...' of course, I'm not a very gutsy person as well as the fact that he was already in his car and gone.
The next morning he actually was acting all happy and he was being a lot of fun to be around. We hung out a lot of the day. Since he was acting so nice I didn't think to say anything about the night before to him. Then during the service we were running camera and I noticed how bad my thumb looked(A completely different story) "Hey *person*," I said "yeah?" he asked "remember how I told you last night about when I hurt my thumb?" "No I don't think so." he replied. "Oh you don't?" I said once more, I know I had told him about it. "Oh yeah," he said "that was right before you started telling me that I'm a gloomy person and need to cheer up or people weren't going to want to be around me." he stated quite simply "I remember now." I cried.... I didn't mean to upset him and the fact that he was bringing it up again must mean that I really did hurt his feelings. 'But I never said people won't want to be around him I was talking about myself' (It's a very long and detailed story that I don't feel like typing out right now).
So whenever we got off camera's the moment service was over I asked him about it. "Hey *person*, did I offend or upset you last night?" I asked him. "A little..." He replied. "Well I really am sorry... I didn't mean to I was just joking, and you're my friend and I do care about how you feel, especially if the way you feel is a result of my actions or behavior... So... I'm really, really sorry..." I said, feeling much better after having done so. "It's okay, it's not like I was mad, I was just... I don't know." He said and smiled at me.
So that's over and done with, and my feeling bad for offending him wasn't why I posted this blog. How many times have I offended someone and they just haven't told me? Well there is a very easy way of telling whether or not I'm serious about the things I say, if I'm serious then I won't say it, if I'm joking I will. It might seem strange but I have this thing about upsetting people, I don't like to and I would never do it on purpose. So if I feel the things that I'm saying are true and might upset the person, especially if I'm speaking seriously to this person, than I will keep my mouth shut. However if I feel the things I'm saying are totally untrue and won't upset them than I say it as a joke(like someone calling me fat, having a waist-size of a tooth-pick I obviously won't be offended). So if you ever catch me saying something that offends you, you should actually be pleased cause I mean the total opposite. :D Does that make sense?
Monday, September 27, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Neat Freak..?
My sister went to stay with my sister in Murfreesboro for a week while Jack(my nephew) stayed with us. I never realized how much of a neat freak I was untill she left.(Not that she's a slob just that it's easier for me to keep my stuff clean whenever it's just me) Our room has never been so clean and it has stayed that way for the entire week. Recently one of my brothers came into the room and moved something and they were so shocked when I freaked out on them because I had been unable to find it. "Everything has it's place if you would just put it back where you found it than things would be alot more simple." The statement(after I had made it) shocked me to. I'm not a super clean neat freak that panics everytime something touches the floor, I would just prefer it not to. I'm still trying to find out if it's a good or bad thing. I used to get annoyed with my grandmother because she is so clean and now I feel odd because I realize how clean I am.. I guess it's not bad to be clean and neat, I just need to not be annoying in doing so. :)
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
My "Secondary Automatic Gag Reflex"
Is my bellybutton... It might seem weird but anytime someone pokes it my first thought is the feeling that my stomach has just whirled upside down and the lurch that says, "Time to lose your lunch" clenches at my tummy. Queasiness is an automatic reaction anytime someone pokes it. I can't stand for it to be poked, or for anyone to poke their bellybutton, or to talk or describe bellybuttons, or for people to even show me their bellybutton. It's just not a nice subject for me.
Needless to say as you are probably already laughing pretty hard about what was previously stated, but people seem to find it hilarious! How is that funny? It's like sticking your finger in someone's ear, or mouth, or nose! It's just gross! I guess I can kind of see why it's funny but still. Today Leah(one of the awesome Libbeys I posted about earlier :) held me down while my other friend Rachael(who is also very awesome) poked my bellybutton more than once might I add.(They are both still awesome to me) I was sad afterwards, 'Why do they do that?' I thought sniffling inwardly. I was upset, but not to the point of tears, only in a mopey way.
Rachael has two little brothers that remind me very much of my own, annoying but adorable, who also know of my issues with my bellybutton. Today we went to a self defense class with them to observe them learn. They told these issues to their instructor, later on he came over and mentioned it to me. "Actually, most people miscalculate where my bellybutton is located." I stated quite simply, "Oh really?" He said inquisitively "Yep, it's because her torso is longer than most peoples." Said Michele. 'Great, he won't miscalculate now!' I thought. Later on he poked my bellybutton and scared me half to death. 'This big married man that knows martial arts just poked my bellybutton! What do I do?!' it was scary. He was a funny guy but, my bellybutton?! Really? Oh well. I don't understand people. :/
Needless to say as you are probably already laughing pretty hard about what was previously stated, but people seem to find it hilarious! How is that funny? It's like sticking your finger in someone's ear, or mouth, or nose! It's just gross! I guess I can kind of see why it's funny but still. Today Leah(one of the awesome Libbeys I posted about earlier :) held me down while my other friend Rachael(who is also very awesome) poked my bellybutton more than once might I add.(They are both still awesome to me) I was sad afterwards, 'Why do they do that?' I thought sniffling inwardly. I was upset, but not to the point of tears, only in a mopey way.
Rachael has two little brothers that remind me very much of my own, annoying but adorable, who also know of my issues with my bellybutton. Today we went to a self defense class with them to observe them learn. They told these issues to their instructor, later on he came over and mentioned it to me. "Actually, most people miscalculate where my bellybutton is located." I stated quite simply, "Oh really?" He said inquisitively "Yep, it's because her torso is longer than most peoples." Said Michele. 'Great, he won't miscalculate now!' I thought. Later on he poked my bellybutton and scared me half to death. 'This big married man that knows martial arts just poked my bellybutton! What do I do?!' it was scary. He was a funny guy but, my bellybutton?! Really? Oh well. I don't understand people. :/
Friday, September 10, 2010
Yesterday; conviction, today; corruption, tomorrow...?
Judgment.
"Then the Lord rained brimstone and fire on Sodom and Gomorrah, from the Lord out of the heavens" Genesis 19:24. "Turning the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah into ashes, condemned them to destruction, making them an example to those who afterward would live ungodly" II Peter 2:6. Humans of today have ignored this example as to what God will do to those who live ungodly. What ever happened to "in God we Trust"? America was built upon the foundation of Christianity, but look around you and what do you see? People used to fear God now they mock him. Pornography floods the streets, alcoholic beverages are being promoted everywhere you turn, murder and rape is at an all time high, people constantly doing harm to their own bodies via drugs, smoking, alcohol, and God still has not forsaken us. What does he have to do to get people to see that he has always been there and always will be. No greater love. And what do us humans do? Spit on it. If I was in Gods place the world would not have lasted this long. It's sad to say and I've actually told some people that I can no longer say "I'm proud to be an American" in fact, I'm pretty ashamed of the fact. Life might be easier in America than it is in other parts of the world, but we are a country built on Christianity and we have totally forsaken our God for the exact things he would have us abandon. It's so sad to think that our America has become the "Sodom and Gomorrah" that God once destroyed as an example to us that would live ungodly and we have decided to overlook this and live ungodly anyways! It's unbelievable!
I suppose the church of today is the 'Lot' that's keeping God from destroying America because honestly I don't see much that's worth him sparing. "I can't honestly say I'm proud to be an American anymore, because it wouldn't be true."-me "Yep, I can't believe it's lasted this long."-Dad.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Life without Libbeys...
Okay, everyone know the Libbeys so I might as well just use names. :)
*The list(What libbeys are good for and why I would miss them)
Okay, so just for the record, I would miss all of the Libbeys if they ever disappeared from my life because they are awesome people and I love them all. These are just extras :)
Target Practice
Sunshine
Smiles
Make-up tips(can sometimes live without ;)
Hugs
Ride to resteraunts(and other places :P)
Volleyball and other things that involve moving ^_^
-Target Practice-
Okay so it might be a little harsh of me to say so but I have a joke that the only thing Seth is good for is "target practice" :) It would seem to be about the same thing with Josh(again only joking). Normally at lunch when the table gets quiet and everything starts to be boring, me and Josh or me and Seth end up have a mini battle with throwing stuff at eachother across the table. This last Sunday, they were on vacation. Conversation was going slow and I already had a piece of paper rolled into a ball already prepared to throw it at someone across the table. I looked up as soon as I had finished. Darn it! I thought No Libbeys.... Who am I supposed to throw it at now?! It might seem hilarious to you, but to me it was a serious delimma.
*Sunshine*
That's what I call Leah. She seems to be the best at cheering me up when I'm down, if not for saying something to make me feel better than it's her habit of honesty that puts a smile on my face. "Sharron?" "Yes?" "Are you wearing green eye makeup?" "Yes Leah. Why?" "No reason..." "What? Seriously, why?" "You kinda look like you're on drugs..." Yes I laughed, for quite sometime. I love her for her honesty. Anytime she's around on a day where the sun is hidden from me, the first song that comes to mind is 'I've got sunshine, on a cloudy day.' The funny thing is that I absolutely despise that song with every fiber of my being because its slow and makes me feel sad, when it's supposed to be a happy song. The second song that comes to mind is 'You are my Sunshine'-Now that's a happy song. :P
(: Smiles :)
Okay, so it's not like no one smiles when they aren't around. But I never have seen such a smile so bright and happy as Esther's. Everytime she smiles I can't help but do the same just because she's such a happy person. I swear there are always more smiles when she is around. I saw people smile alot while she was gone to but there is definitely a difference :)
Make-up tips.
This brings me back to "Sunshine". She is the only one that is honest about my makeup. When she is gone, half of the people I know tell me, "Oh wow, you're makeup looks awesome!" the other half says "What happened to your face?" and meanwhile I and simply confused. Josh normally enjoys making fun of me no matter how good I look so normally I ignore his comments. However, when Leah makes a comment about how my makeup looks I normally except it as her totally honest opinion. Thats what I like about her :)
~Hugs~
Leah and Esther give the best hugs on earth. Leah always does this thing, if I'm wearing a long skirt(as we recently decided it's not good to do when wearing a skirt that only goes to the knees is not such a good idea), where she picks me up and spins me around. I always feel totally dizzy afterwards but the main thing is that it is worth it lol. Esther always gives me an awesome hug just because she doesn't give me one that says 'Uh, I really don't want to hug this person and I wish she would leave me alone.' instead she gives me one that says 'Oh, yay, it's my happy little burnette friend whom I love so much, Hug and Happiness! YAY!' ^_^
Rides to Resteraunts
Normally I ride with Josh everywhere(I LOVE his car :), when Josh isn't available to ride with Seth is normally my second choice. I recently discovered that riding with Seth scares me half to death because his car is kinda odd in my oppinion, it's too smooth. I can hardly feel it accelerating or breaking, or turning, and honestly, I like to know whats happening when I'm in a car. The fact that I don't know in Seth's car just scares me a little bit. That and I know he hasn't wrecked, but the thought of riding with an inexperienced driver scares me too. So sorry Seth, I think I'll stick with Josh and Shelby. :) When Josh wasn't there that one Sunday, however, I had no idea who I was going to ride with. I'm just glad I chose to ride with Toby.
Volleyball
The weekend that the Libbeys were gone, was possibly the most boring weekend I've had since I've been here. No volleyball, no tolleyball, nothing. It was totally boring. I'm pretty sure that if a Libbey had been in town that we would have done something, especially since the weather was so nice. But since they weren't we didn't... Oh well. Good to have them back. I love them all bunches! :)
*The list(What libbeys are good for and why I would miss them)
Okay, so just for the record, I would miss all of the Libbeys if they ever disappeared from my life because they are awesome people and I love them all. These are just extras :)
Target Practice
Sunshine
Smiles
Make-up tips(can sometimes live without ;)
Hugs
Ride to resteraunts(and other places :P)
Volleyball and other things that involve moving ^_^
-Target Practice-
Okay so it might be a little harsh of me to say so but I have a joke that the only thing Seth is good for is "target practice" :) It would seem to be about the same thing with Josh(again only joking). Normally at lunch when the table gets quiet and everything starts to be boring, me and Josh or me and Seth end up have a mini battle with throwing stuff at eachother across the table. This last Sunday, they were on vacation. Conversation was going slow and I already had a piece of paper rolled into a ball already prepared to throw it at someone across the table. I looked up as soon as I had finished. Darn it! I thought No Libbeys.... Who am I supposed to throw it at now?! It might seem hilarious to you, but to me it was a serious delimma.
*Sunshine*
That's what I call Leah. She seems to be the best at cheering me up when I'm down, if not for saying something to make me feel better than it's her habit of honesty that puts a smile on my face. "Sharron?" "Yes?" "Are you wearing green eye makeup?" "Yes Leah. Why?" "No reason..." "What? Seriously, why?" "You kinda look like you're on drugs..." Yes I laughed, for quite sometime. I love her for her honesty. Anytime she's around on a day where the sun is hidden from me, the first song that comes to mind is 'I've got sunshine, on a cloudy day.' The funny thing is that I absolutely despise that song with every fiber of my being because its slow and makes me feel sad, when it's supposed to be a happy song. The second song that comes to mind is 'You are my Sunshine'-Now that's a happy song. :P
(: Smiles :)
Okay, so it's not like no one smiles when they aren't around. But I never have seen such a smile so bright and happy as Esther's. Everytime she smiles I can't help but do the same just because she's such a happy person. I swear there are always more smiles when she is around. I saw people smile alot while she was gone to but there is definitely a difference :)
Make-up tips.
This brings me back to "Sunshine". She is the only one that is honest about my makeup. When she is gone, half of the people I know tell me, "Oh wow, you're makeup looks awesome!" the other half says "What happened to your face?" and meanwhile I and simply confused. Josh normally enjoys making fun of me no matter how good I look so normally I ignore his comments. However, when Leah makes a comment about how my makeup looks I normally except it as her totally honest opinion. Thats what I like about her :)
~Hugs~
Leah and Esther give the best hugs on earth. Leah always does this thing, if I'm wearing a long skirt(as we recently decided it's not good to do when wearing a skirt that only goes to the knees is not such a good idea), where she picks me up and spins me around. I always feel totally dizzy afterwards but the main thing is that it is worth it lol. Esther always gives me an awesome hug just because she doesn't give me one that says 'Uh, I really don't want to hug this person and I wish she would leave me alone.' instead she gives me one that says 'Oh, yay, it's my happy little burnette friend whom I love so much, Hug and Happiness! YAY!' ^_^
Rides to Resteraunts
Normally I ride with Josh everywhere(I LOVE his car :), when Josh isn't available to ride with Seth is normally my second choice. I recently discovered that riding with Seth scares me half to death because his car is kinda odd in my oppinion, it's too smooth. I can hardly feel it accelerating or breaking, or turning, and honestly, I like to know whats happening when I'm in a car. The fact that I don't know in Seth's car just scares me a little bit. That and I know he hasn't wrecked, but the thought of riding with an inexperienced driver scares me too. So sorry Seth, I think I'll stick with Josh and Shelby. :) When Josh wasn't there that one Sunday, however, I had no idea who I was going to ride with. I'm just glad I chose to ride with Toby.
Volleyball
The weekend that the Libbeys were gone, was possibly the most boring weekend I've had since I've been here. No volleyball, no tolleyball, nothing. It was totally boring. I'm pretty sure that if a Libbey had been in town that we would have done something, especially since the weather was so nice. But since they weren't we didn't... Oh well. Good to have them back. I love them all bunches! :)
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